Well I haven't touched this blog in a while. My private life has gone through some major Chaos and I am re-examining myself. At this point in my life I am finding very little about myself that I like. I am fat, I am not the best wife, I am not a good housekeeper, I spend far too much money on nothing, I am bitchy to a fault. The only thing I think I am remotely good at is parenting and even there I am failing miserably with Michael.
So I am stealing from the fly lady program, at least the acronymn fly. It stands for
Finally
Loving
Yourself
I need to get myself in order and start loving myself before I can really improve the quality of my family's lives.
So as a start I have started going to Water aerobics 3 days a week. other benefits of this is that Andrew gets the socialization he is craving in the wee care room and Michael is working out in the fitness center while I am there so we are all benefitting from my exercising. I guess that is an example of how loving myself is already benefitting my family. My next step is going to be dieting. I just have to figure out what diet I want to go on. I am looking at the fat flush plan but it seems to need a lot of supplements that I would need to buy. I guess that buying the supplements wouldn't be too bad and my friend that I heard about it from has had great results. I have a yoga/pilates tape that I would like to start making time to do daily. Another friend raves about yoga, she goes to classes but I think I would prefer trying it in the privacy of my own home first. I also need to get my butt in gear with the flylady system for the house. I did a thorough cleaning in the livingroom a few days ago and I cannot tell you how great it felt to walk in that nice clean room. Unfortunately the clean is wearing off a bit because I haven't been maintaining the clean.
I am going to just make a list here of the things I plan to work on (and of course this will change)
* continue exercising
* decide on a diet and start it
* start a cleaning program and stick with it
* spend more time with my children
* carve out more time for me (reading or otherwise relaxing)
* Make couple time with Bryan a priority
